Autistic Rants With Shira Kanner

So, this is a poem I wrote on 9.8.23 (a day after CORPE's birthday! Happy birthday CORPSE🥳🥳!!!). Fear Fear, It keeps drumming in your ear, Just don't shed a single tear, So they don't see, So they don't hear, It takes control over your life, Don't do this, No don't do that, It's much harder than I thought, Oh, for how long have I fought, Over on a losing team, There's no fog, No there's just steam, Oh the fear, It won't die down, It just sits there with it's crown, On it's thron on top a hill, It's just waiting for it's kill, Though for how long will I fear, Oh the timeline isn't clear.

You know, I really missed posting here. It's just that I always lazy out. Or it's my depression (and my other mental illnesses) draining me. Or the fact that I'm most probably very burnt out. Or all of those combined. Even though I know nobody is reading this. It's still nice to have an outlet, since I don't have any friends or someone I can talk to. Well, anyways, have a good rest if your day/night. Don't really know when I'll post next.

So there's a power outage in our building right now, I know for sure it's in our whole building because I saw two of our neighbours from a few floors up walking up the steps to their apartment, which means the elevator isn't working, which means the outage is in the whole building. And since there is no electricity, there is also no Wi-fi. And since my little brother is home with us, and all he does all day is be on his tablet, he's in the living room right now, and, (this is why I'm posting this🤣) he's literally just asking "Why?" so dramatically it sounds like it's the end of the world🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 and I'm just hearing it all the way from my room (he's saying it really loudly🤣🤣) and dying laughing🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. I'M DEAD!!!!!!🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. THAT KID IS SO DRAMATIC, I LOVE IT!!!!🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. It was just too funny not to write about🤣🤣🤣. Have a good day/night🤗

So, I just finished reading "Fall of the School for Good and Evil", (yes, I'm late, I know, took me  a while to finish it. Especially since I bought it on kindle and so I kept forgetting I had to finish it since I'm used to having paperback books that I can see on my shelf... Aaaaand, I didn't have the energy to read...) and there is just one thing I'd like to say...... I KNEW IT!!!!!! I KNEW RHIAN WOULD KILL RAFAL AND TAKE HIS IDENTITY!!!!!! I KNEW IT BEFORE THE BOOK WAS EVEN OUT!!!!!! Sorry, I just had to come out and say it😅. When I was theorising like everyone on who the One would be, there was only one scenario that made sense. And that was Rhian being the One and only school master, because there was no way Rafal would ever be able to kill his twin, being good and all. But that doesn't make sense, does it? Not based on the events in "the School for Good and Evil" series, that takes place after the events of this book (like...a long time a...

I think I might have GERD.

Also, I'm gonna be cutting my hair this Thursday. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhh!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!! I'll probably post a before and after of on my Instagram (follow shiraknnr), and maybe a vlog on my vlog YouTube channel "shira vlogs". I am so excited!!!!!!! I'm doing this because to be able to change on the inside, I really need a drastic change on the outside, and once I do it, things are gonna start changing for the better. Sixth sense feeling. I just know it. Once I do it, it's gonna set off a chain of events. I feel like I'm changing. I've felt that for the past month, maybe because last month was pride month. Ironic isn't it? And what is also ironic is the fact that not too long ago I finished reading KOTLC, and how in the last, two books? Three books? They've talked about change, and how Gisela changed Keefe with new abilities, and how in the ninth book everybody's been saying that Sophie's changed, and I noticed that too!!! And ho...